and all happy things happen and you feel blessed?
All it takes is for some stray thing to take you back and push you down.
For me it was the zebra crossing. I was crossing the road decently when suddenly it was just too overwhelming. It all came back to me like it had happened yesterday. And I had put it very firmly behind. But may be not.
Strange, you can talk to someone endlessly and not miss them when they are gone.
Strange that the one person you trust to treat you right, does you so wrong and doesn't even apologize. When all your worst fears about yourself are confirmed oh so callously.
Oh bugger it. I'm funking it blue.
And I so don't need it now.